advice – Crowded Mind

This Is Me Today

Have you ever put your ear to the ground and listened. I have seen it done in the movies, Native American trackers putting their ears to the ground to hear horses’ hooves, miles away. I’m listening now. I am angry with my child, the boy one, he was rude, expected too much, forgot I am a person, saw only the mother. He treated me with contempt. My love was not shield enough, he hurt me. He hurt me with a thoughtless text message.

I want him to apologise, see the wound he made with his words but he is young and does not understand the weapons he holds.

I want to be the parent, the rock, but today I crumbled into the rough sea of hormones.

Life is a river, everything changes

An old lady knocked on my door.

I said “Hello”

She said, “I hope you don’t mind, my husband built this house.”

I was confused and left space for the explanation.

“It was the first house on this section” she continued, looking back to the road. “We bought it from the farmer.”

I wondered whether she was still talking to me.

“I hope you don’t mind but I see that you have been doing a lot of work on the place.”

We had totally renovated, an 8 month project, I was still titivating.

I remembered my manners. “Would you like to come in?” I put the roller in a plastic bag and tapped the lid back on the pot of paint. Continue reading “Advise Safe” →